A couple of nights ago, I was chatting to my man on a blurry Skype connection while he sat on the couch in our old apartment in Kathmandu, Nepal.
He’s back there for the moment wrapping up his research project, and his being there has had me all reflective about this time last year, when we were just settling into living there for the following six months.
It wasn’t long after we arrived there last November that I found myself suffering a couple of bouts of a particularly nasty gastro bug, and the second round of it ended with me being rushed by our Nepali family to the nearest high-quality emergency room; me delirious with severe dehydration in the back seat, my beautiful man holding me, barely knowing where we were as we wound our way through the back streets of Patan and along the Bagmati river.
Fast forward through a few days of mega-rehydration in a fantastic hospital, and I was curled in a little ball on the floor in our apartment, centimetres from our bar heater, trying to get warm in the frigidly frosty December weather. I can still feel the course carpet beneath me, while the oscillating heater whirred, barely heating my face.
I’d been discharged from the hospital, but hadn’t yet fully recovered. I intuitively knew, and somehow was able to communicate to the doctors (who were reluctant to let me leave) that I wasn’t going to fully heal while I had a needled cannula sticking into my hand. My body simply wasn’t going to be fully well while being intermittently poked and prodded at all hours of the day and night.
But it was a risk to leave. If I needed to be re-admitted, insurance wouldn’t cover it (the discharge was against the advice of the doctors).
So alongside feeling anxious about the ramifications of me leaving the hospital, I encountered another issue: the light and energy I normally felt coursing through my body, connecting me to the universal current, atma, god, ‘all that is’, whatever you want to call it – was gone.
And it felt awful.
The feeling of not being connected to my inner light left me feeling bereft, anxious, disconnected and ungrounded.
And what I realised was that this used to be my constant REALITY. Not the exception to my reality. My living, breathing, day-to-day truth. I would subconsciously always be trying to self-soothe: numbing and distracting myself with shopping, tv-watching, drinking alcohol, or trashy magazines – anything to stop me from being fully present with the disconnection I felt internally.
And I now had to find a way to anchor this light back into my body, without even knowing if it was possible (seriously, I thought it was GONE.)
So, I began to lean back into the processes that helped me get to the connection in the first place. I tuned into my guides, surrendered, lay in shivasana for hours as I channelled the light back through my body, and slowly but surely, I found my way back into the space of being a conductor between the energy of the cosmos, and the earth.
Let me tell you – it was sweet, sweet, relief and pure joy to come back into this state. I now never take it for granted. (And I didn’t need to go back to hospital.)
Can you relate? Are you feeling a similar feeling of disconnection within, during these times of energetic ascension?
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